there's a lot of love
yesterday, i was really depressed. i was still thinking about the fight with the brother and stuff, but then i realised that instead of being upset because of one person, i should be glad that i have other family and friends who care for me, who bother making the effort to make me smile.i was talking to airell last night about being afraid not being able to make friends in poly later on, and then we were like "well, if we don't make friends, we are in the same FMS (film and media school), so do what you gotta do." and "but you wouldn't know if we drift apart."
friendship is a wonderful gift, so so wonderful, it's priceless. i do admit some friendships are very superficial, some very genuine, some last for very long, and some for just a moment. we may drift apart, we may be friends for a very long time, but our busy lives makes it inevitable that we sometimes forget our friends even though we try not to. whatever it is, i shall always remind myself how great it was while it lasted.
i remember my friends, yes i do. from the girl called shafiqah in kindergarten, joyce yip in primary 1 and 2, the malay girls from primary 4 onwards, valerie, ranitha and eliza in secondary 1, margareth, fatein and siti in secondary 2, shan from sec 3 till present, sowmya, selene, back four, measels fam from sec 4, nurul and farid since i changed my religious class from en-naeem to al-istiqamah, zara ever since i joined FSV, and FSV ever since i joined FSV, ele, sol and marie ever since we got together for PW, glen and jiaxiang, charissa, amanda and josephine..
and the list goes on.
certain friends take part in major events in our lives, certain friends were there for the minial things that happened. and now comes to think about it, there is a lot of love in the world, but the bad things that happened just overshadow the lovely things that were made for us to see. i guess, emotions really do come in pairs. without hurt, without pain, there is no love or compassion.
and family, though it sometimes become the reason for us to be held back from our dreams, are the very people who'd be there for us, no matter what. i am sure. and i love them so, no matter how hurt i may be, how lonely i sometimes feel, i do love them. i know that i can rely on them, that i can say anything i want to them, talk about crazy things and substantial issues with them, and they shall never turn their backs on me. i'm glad i have family like my mom and my dad and my sis and my cousin reen and uncle bob to talk to. even though i sometimes find it difficult to say how i really feel to some of them, i know i can talk to someone else and we'll find a solution. gosh, i know how it all sounds really mushy, but i really really really love my entire family (immediate and extended). and yes, my brother is included.
i guess, i am human after all. not so eccentric when it comes to feelings, aye?
here's the part where i smile by myself and realise how silly teenage angst is.
posted by Myz @ 3:19 PM
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