RANDOM-ISM.

ah, their child prodigy.

and so he strikes again, mesmerising the elder ones with ability to do anything, his ability to be so PERFECT. a strong sense of jealousy and disgust lurks around the house, and especially around this physical being.


honestly, i can never be happy for the people around me unless i know them really well. i don't know what's wrong with me. maybe i am too neurotic and cynical about things. well, i don't know. that's what people percept me as anyway. naah, don't worry about her, she's just being her cynical and the neurotic self. haha. so they say.


was walking around plaza singapura with zara yesterday too and window shopping and stuff and created a whole new list of things that i ought to get like shoes and bags (whoo, what else?) and lingerie (thanks to zara's UNrandom but sudden outburst) and more shoes and bags. i keep on adding items to this list but i usually won't be able to get them cos i don't have the moolah, my dad has 4 kids and i don't have a job. so yeah, maybe i can use hari raya as an excuse. maybe.


honestly, i didn't know that the aunt's condition is so bad that her case's now handed over to hospices and things along that line. mom's telling me to visit her cos she's really sick but then i just feel awkward cos i'm not really close to that side of the family and the side of Singapore where she's at now is what i call, Matland. i'll really feel awkward visiting her. i mean, what can i say to her, and it's not as if i can do anything. she's bedridden and yeah, i just won't know what to do. it's like me and my brother but far worse. and if i were to go there, it'll prolly be like an hour bus ride and then getting lost in the midst of HDB flats and then stay for say, 20 mins, and then get lost again and another hour of bus ride. with my sister. how torturous can that be?


my, my, i AM evil.


aah, the wonderful sounds of slamming doors and blabbering voices. a perfect way to start the day i must say.

posted by Myz @ 9:23 AM