RANDOM-ISM.

when i'm bored. (#05)

CHANCES. that is one thing most of us are afraid of taking. taking chances. the whole "future" thing is a mystery, whether or not you believe in dreams, fortune tellers, premonitions and stuff. and i guess this uncertainty is exactly what makes me people afraid: they are afraid that they'd be taking the wrong turn, making the wrong decisions, sacrificing the wrong things.


therefore, people study HISTORY. look back into time, learning the mistakes other people had done, observing the things that other people used to do and try to adapt it to their current situation. sometimes history benefits them, other times people just get even more afraid that history is going to repeat itself. some people look into history just to focus on the most glorified years and feel good about themselves, and sometimes people look into the worst period of time to mock others. but hey, they all took CHANCES all the same.


i admit, quitting jc is definitely altering the history that my mom and my dad and my brother had made. it's a huge chance that i'm taking. i don't know what poly has in store for me, or what my future is going to be like, but i am taking that chance. of course, in due time, i'll take a look back into what i had had before: my childhood years, the growing up stage in primary school, days i spent in secondary school and of course, the short period of time in CJ. i'll take a look, and each time i do that, i won't know how i'll feel. because i believe everyone has chosen to keep certain memories intact in their heads and leave others behind, or even tampered with. memory is a tricky thing. it's really biased. and sometimes it fades away. away. away. away. away.


some people believe that there is one angel out there for everyone. the one that looks over you, that looks after you, that ensures you are safe and happy and all that shit. but i believe that the only angel that really looks out for you is you. and of course God, if you believe in a higher power.

"dreams are telegrams from another world"

posted by Myz @ 10:55 AM